Wednesday, June 18, 2008
As many of you know, John is currently at the end of his one year contract with his current company. Yes, he can continue to work for them indefinitely, but we don't really want him to. In fact, we really DON'T want him to. Some jobs aren't so hard on the family, this one is HORRENDOUS! So, we are hoping that he will get a different job sometime soon, yesterday would be best. And, herein lies the dilemna. We try our hardest to recieve counsel from Heavenly Father on things that effect our lives, so we have been praying about the search for a new job. In fact, we have been doing this since December. And, since December, we have both recieved the direction that we are to wait and things will work out. In December, that seemed reasonable. In January, Feburary and even part of March, that sounded okay. April, May and now June it is much harder to follow the counsel. But, when do you say, "Sorry Lord, I know better than you do. Here is what we are going to do." As soon as we consider it, it just doesn't feel right. And, I am left dumbfounded and a furstrated. One of the hardest things to deal with is how to answer the question, "How is the job hunt going? Who has John submitted resumes to?" It feels ridiculous to say, "Well, no one, actually. We keep being prompted to wait, so we are trying to be faithful." I know that the Lord will bless us, but I also am aware that I sound like a RAVING LUNATIC! As there is already so much cause for people to think I am a raving lunatic, I hate to give them more ammuntion. ;) So, we wait. And, until we are directed (and trust me, we pray about this daily) we are not taking steps to actively pursue another job. And, I know the Lord will bless us. He loves His children and wants to give us the good and righteous things we desire. I am convinced that John's desire to provide for and be with his family is a good and righteous desire, so I am convinced that the Lord will do what He has promised. I guess I should just give a bland meaningless answer to the job hunt question when it is asked, but I just can't be anything less than completely honest. I promise that as soon as we find anything out about a new job for John, I will blog it in big bold letters. Feel free to ask in the meantime, but if I get a crazed look in my eyes, it is nothing personal.