"We can do no great things, only small things with great love." - Mother Teresa

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Now I Understand

I remember as a teenager listening to my mom say that she always felt depressed on Mother's day. She felt like it was a reminder of all the things she wasn't doing. I didn't get that. If you knew my mother, you would understand why. She was the mom all the kids only wished they had. Of course, she wasn't perfect, but neither were her kids (I mean, her other kids.) Anyway, I remember her making similar remarks on other occasions. Like after going to a visiting teaching conference. And now, as an overwhelmed adult, I finally get it.

I went to our ward's visiting teaching conference tonight. The speaker was good, and the music was excellent (just kidding, I sang.) But, as the speaker talked, I found myself feeling like I was laying in my coffin, and with every topic she covered, I was having shovelfuls of dirt dumped on me. She did a great job, but there are so many things that I wish I could be doing. You should meet the ladies I visit, they are wonderful! But, I just don't have the time to do all the things for each of them that really could be justifiably done. I guess I should rely on the Spirit to prompt me to the most important things. But, when one of the examples of how to do visiting teaching was to do for our sisters what their mothers would do if they were here, I almost cried! Oh well. Does anyone else feel this way? Maybe I am just crazy.


Linda Johnston said...

Oh my friend. You are not alone. I feel like this often but we need to remember that their is a time and a season. We do not have to perfect at all things right now. We just need to focus on what season we are in. I know you are always their for you sisters that you visit teach I have been your companion. You are an amazing mother. And a terrific friend. Hope you have a good day today.

Brya said...

There are a couple of things I feel like I need to cover. 1.Being one of her perfect children myself I can honestly say, Please, you were not one of them, not even close. 2.You totally weren't kidding about the music being excellent, except for maybe the false start. 3.The ladies you visit teach are lucky to have you. You can totally step in to that mother roll, your just one of those wicked step mothers!

KellyAnne said...

Lol, is Brya your sister? That had me laughing hard. Probably because I have sisters.
Funny how those who seem so perfect can be the hardest on themselves...??

Tara said...

Yes, Brya is my sister. She got the funny genes in the family...And, it is the ones who SEEM perfect, but aren't that are the hardest. I am glad you think I am one of those though, it means the I am pulling off the image!